Such a thing has never happened to me before… only a few
past experiences may help me troubleshoot a bit of it. But this kind of scenario
is a stranger to me; something I did not expect can happen to me… Just like a
bottle of ice cold beer, it gave me temporary high. But after sobering up, I
would think, I don’t want to take another one….
But among all the things that happened, one thing got me
stranded. I had a taste of a SHORT LIVED victory that was after all A LIE… A
crown I thought was mine, but isn’t.
I thought it was for real. But it wasn’t… I was after all
just a DRY RUN… I was just a tool to test the waters… If I was conquered, then
the REAL one can…
This is a one sided deal… I gave and lost more than what I deserve
in return. Or rather, I never even received anything out of it at all…
So stupid of me… after all this time, I was just USED…
What pains me, I get to see “it” EVERY DAY….
Now tell me…. How can I Move on???